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No I’m not Anorexic…but…

February 14, 2010 by Tellie  
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I don’t like food.

Wait! Wait! Please don’t judge me…hear me out!

I know I blogged about my eating habits before, but a couple months ago while talking to a friend about said habits, I came to a shocking conclusion: I don’t like eating.  I don’t like pork. I don’t like beef. Or chicken. Turkey is the worst. Don’t get me started on vegetables. I’m not even into chocolate or sweets. I do prefer to eat starches, but I can live without.  Fruits are probably the food group I tolerate the most. That’s it. I have preferences not likenesses.

You can imagine how frustrated my parents were when I was growing up and I exclaimed after every meal that “I don’t like it!” Now I just don’t bother. So what do I eat? Pretty much everything…whatever tastes best. But do I enjoy it? No, not really. The only reason why I eat is so that I feel good. When I don’t eat for a long extended period of time, I feel crappy…I guess most people call that feeling hunger. So in order to avoid feeling crappy, I eat.  If I didn’t need to eat to live,  I probably wouldn’t.

This was a huge problem when I first started college. In high school there was a set time for lunch, and my parents always cooked dinner at a certain time.  When I went to college I literally forgot to eat because, for me, eating was a chore.   So instead of gaining the freshman 15, I literally lost 15 lbs my first semester.  I’m doing better now and my weight is stabilized and  I eat lunch and dinner at the same time everyday so I don’t “forget”.

I’m not skinny. I’m just average. But I do realize I eat less than everyone I know.  My friends know I don’t eat a lot and they’re fine with it because I don’t starve myself . I just eat until I’m full and I’m done with it. I don’t eat for pleasure. I find eating just as pleasurable as washing dishes, doing laundry, or taking a poop on the toilet. This situation has me wondering: Am I the only person in the world that doesn’t get a kick out of eating? Am I weird? Crazy? HELP!

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  • Ratbarzane
    Oh joy... I'm not the only one... lol
    Eating to me is something I do because I have to, sometimes I forget to eat for a day or two and wonder why I'm feeling crappy, but usually I get 1 meal a day - I have to prep food for my daughter, so I feed myself at the same time, but when she is at school, I tend to forget to feed myself lunch.
    I eat till I'm full, then I get back to the more interesting things I'd like to be doing.
    I do have foods I prefer, some that I even like, but if I didn't have to eat to live, I probably wouldn't bother.
  • Moondemon3213
    I'm sorta like that, only I actually have favorite food that I love to eat (I'm kinda picky with my food though. I don't really like my mom's cooking, so I throw it out when she's not looking...and other times she doesn't cook so I have to survive on my own or my dad buys something). I'm actually really not anorexic either, but it just fuckin' pisses me off when ppl call me that (even when they don't even know me!) which reminds me why I even looked up about anorexia... but anyway, I hate how I never gain weight no matter HOW much I fucking eat, like it's so crazy! And I don't have any ribs showing, nor do I lose more hair than usual and neither do I even feel light headed most of the time! IT JUST PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH I WANNA KILL ALL THE DAMN PPL THAT CALLS ME THAT! But I know I can't, cuz then I would be expelled from school and go to juvy for who knows how long...
  • Helenn127
    P.S. The strange thing is, I love to cook, and I watch TONS of cooking shows o_O But I don't tend to eat the food I cook, only sometimes. I wish I did like food! Hmph... xo
  • Helenn127
    I know how you feel, I don't like to eat either. I'm nearly 19 and it really worrys me sometimes. A lot of the time I can't be bothered to eat, and sometimes, even if I haven't eaten in hours and hours, I just don't want to. I'm really not sure what to do... Nothing has really helped so far. I hope we both find answers. =] xo
  • kamigirl
    i like to eat... i just dont do alot of it. im not anorexic but my friends are worried about me. i barley eat anything at lunch. i feel jittery all the time. i think im gonna fail my grade because ive stayed home so many days. i dont have the energy to go. im weird, i'll act normal around my friends but when im alone or just at my house i never smile.i fell alone sometimesill cry in the most random of places. during a test i cryed, when i was on the bus i cryed even when i was getting dressed i cryed. im thinking about some pretty crazy things like running away or just cutting ive never done it before but it wouldnt be that hard...am i going crazy or am i just a normal teenage girl suffering from stress?
  • I think a lot of what you are experiencing is normal teenage stuff, but you
    might also need help as well.

    You might want to see if your crying can be attributed to PMS if you're
    crying about a week before your Aunt Flo arrives then that might have a lot
    to do with your emotions. I know when I was in high school I had severe PMS
    and mood swings associated with it and once I got to college things settled
    way down. But I must admit I was a BEAST and everyone in my family knew
    what was wrong.

    About the feeling "weird", I feel the same way all the time. Quite frankly,
    I think I'm weird and I'm okay with that! A huge problem with high school is
    the fact that the amount of people you come into contact each day is very
    limited, once you get to college you'll meet people that share the same
    interests as you. Plus, why would you want to be "normal" any way? That's
    just boring so cliche. Stand out and be yourself!

    Now if these feelings are going through your head just a few days out of the
    month then like I said, it's probably just normal teenage stress, if it's
    happening for days and weeks without ceasing then you might want to talk to
    someone like a guidance counselor. And I'm also pretty sure you aren't going
    crazy...I think most of the emotional issues teenagers go through
    (especially teenage girls) is just dealing with hormonal changes.
  • this is definitely a first. i have never heard of anyone equating eating to doing laundry and doing dishes, two things i loathe.

    perhaps you haven't been introduced to a group of food that you enjoy?
  • I don't necessarily like to eat, but I do. And it's more than obvious that I know my way around a plate. So, no, you're not weird or crazy. But I do eat mostly for the socializing. I did read awhile back that part of the reason that America is overweight is because we've glamorized the eating experience, when it's not a necessarily pretty thing to witness, what with the spinach in the teeth and the pasta sauce that always ends up on someone's chin and some people's inability to close their mouth while they chew.
  • Can't say I have the same sentiment because I absolutely love eating. The taste of food is always satisfying. I'd sooner call that a curse considering the ramifications of eating everything can be one really large girl. I guess as long as you get enough nutrients, you're fine!
  • You may not like it, but girlie, I LOVE IT! LOL

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  • I know a couple people who are like that and I'm not worried about them. I wouldn't worry too much. :)
  • Kez
    Wow! My problem is that I like food too much. I order too much food because I get scared of feeling hungry! I have to exercise a lot to try and control everything! I used to have better self control but lately food has been a comfort thing - bad I know!
  • fuegita
    Food is such a big part of a lot of social activities. Most social gatherings food is involved. It's a big part of the culture
  • Socializing is my favorite part of the eating process. In fact I always eat in a group (that's what actually motivates me to eat at the same time every day). But the whole fork-to-mouth-masticate-and-swallow bit I could do without.
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