July 4, 2011 by Tellie
Filed under My Inner Kindlings
What it felt like to be pain free… well I’m not 100% pain free but my usual 6-8/10 pain is probably a 2-3/10. I can live with that. It feels lovely. It sucks that I have to take steroids to feel this way though.
June 30, 2011 by Tellie
Filed under My Inner Kindlings
The doctor…She was a weird lady. She didn’t indicate what she thought was “wrong” but I had to have more tests done and I’m on steroids. Apparently my blood says that I have chronic inflammation. I don’t really understand how important it is, but my numbers are suppose to be around 16, and it is 75. My white blood cell count is also up. Also whatever you do DON’T GOOGLE YOUR BLOOD TESTS FOLKS! I read on google that having a number of 100+ is a sure sign that you have a very serious disease, and it may very well be cancer. And if it is cancer it’s probably metastasized (spread to other parts of your body). I know my number wasn’t over 100 but 75 is close enough to make me think all sorts of horrible thoughts. As much as I hate to be on steroids (because I’ll probably gain weight), I am happy that my pain may be under control 
June 29, 2011 by Tellie
Filed under My Inner Kindlings
I hope tomorrow the specialist I am going to see is willing to listen. I hope this doctor isn’t like the others telling me it’s “nothing” or “in my head”. I really really want this pain to go away. I am just sad thinking about tomorrow. I think I’m already preparing myself for disappointment because that’s all I’ve known over the past 5 years. 5 years. I can’t believe it’s been so long. I’m tired of all this.
June 23, 2011 by Tellie
Filed under My Inner Kindlings
So…I know I said I’d find a doctor soon, and go and blah blah blah blah. But I didn’t. At least not until this week (Tuesday actually). So I went, found a new doctor, told them my symptoms, got some blood work done, and was expecting the same thing “nothing is wrong” blah blah blah. Well as soon as I got done with the doctors I began to feel like crap. I figured that was a good thing since I went to the doctors right before my symptoms started flaring up. And Lo and behold my blood work was actually abnormal! Why on earth did it take 5+ years for my blood work to show something abnormal is beyond me. But I will go with it. So now I’m off to see a specialist.
