Officially Broke: How I Did It.

So I’m officially broke.

As in I have $0 to my name.

Here’s how it happened.  One of the main reasons why I was saving up money was for new apartment furniture (I still didn’t have a real bed, my couch was atrocious, etc.).   So when I finally had the time, I went out and bought a new bedroom set + a mattress ($1000) and a new sofa ($800).  I got tired of my crappy TV so I got a new one ($300).

Then I made a surprise trip to visit my dad for Father’s day not too long ago ($200).  That was nice because he was TOTALLY not expecting it. Then I bought another set of plane tickets home because they were cheap ($100).

I was also saving for a piano, I figured I’d utilize the practice rooms on campus until I graduate in 2015(ish). But then they came up with this rule that non-music majors can’t use the practice rooms so I had to lease one ($300).

Then I spent $200+ on various tests, medications, doctors appointments I’ve had over the past month.

And so I’m 100% broke.

But it’s all good it just means means I get to start back from square 1!

So here’s my new financial plan since I’ve met my other ones.

Europe Trip (next June): $3000 ~or $300/month (starting next month)
New Clothes (by September): $??? (however much I can save by September)
Coffee Table: $150 (the last big furniture  purchase I need to make)
Credit Card (by next month) : $1000  ( I want this paid off in full ASAP, I do not believe in being in debt when I don’t have to).

The financial goals will be a little harder to obtain over the next 3 months since my monthly salary has decreased by $300.  But it is feasible.  So my goal is to go back to living off of $1200/month until my pay increases again in October while meeting all these financial goals. According to mint.com my net value is $23.24 (which should go down when a few of more bills pop up for this month).

This should be interesting. Wish me luck!

I almost forgot…

What it felt like to be pain free… well I’m not 100% pain free but my usual 6-8/10 pain is probably a 2-3/10.  I can live with that.  It feels lovely.  It sucks that I have to take steroids to feel this way though.

So

The doctor…She was a weird lady. She didn’t indicate what she thought was “wrong” but I had to have more tests done and I’m on steroids.  Apparently my blood says that I have chronic inflammation.  I don’t really understand how important it is, but my numbers are suppose to be around 16, and it is 75. My white blood cell count is also up.  Also whatever you do DON’T GOOGLE YOUR BLOOD TESTS FOLKS! I read on google that having a number of 100+ is a sure sign that you have a very serious disease, and it may very well be cancer. And if it is cancer it’s probably metastasized (spread to other parts of your body).  I know my number wasn’t over 100 but 75 is close enough to make me think all sorts of horrible thoughts.  As much as I hate to be on steroids (because I’ll probably gain weight), I am happy that my pain may be under control

Hoping, Wishing, Praying

I hope tomorrow the specialist I am going to see is willing to listen.  I hope this doctor isn’t like the others telling me it’s “nothing” or “in my head”. I really really want this pain to go away.  I am just sad thinking about tomorrow.  I think I’m already preparing myself for disappointment  because that’s all I’ve known over the past 5 years.  5 years. I can’t believe it’s been so long. I’m tired of all this.

It’s Not in My Head

So…I know I said I’d find a doctor soon, and go and blah blah blah blah. But I didn’t. At least not until this week (Tuesday actually).  So I went, found a new doctor,  told them my symptoms, got some blood work done, and was expecting the same thing “nothing is wrong” blah blah blah. Well as soon as I got done with the doctors I began to feel like crap. I figured that was a good thing since I went to the doctors right before my symptoms started flaring up.  And Lo and behold my blood work was actually abnormal! Why on earth did it take 5+ years for my blood work to show something abnormal is beyond me. But I will go with it. So now I’m off to see a specialist.

$o far $o good. Kind of…

Well I am doing really well with this challenge here is what I bought this week:

$15 worth of goods from wal-mart
$50 worth of groceries
$30 book for school

For a grand total of $95.  Which means I am $25 over budget. I totally did not anticipate needing to buy another book for school, BUT I was able to offset it by an almost equal amount from ebates. Yup this month I got a $30 deposit into my bank account from ebates.  So tomorrow I will put $10 worth of gas in my tank and I shall remain right on schedule. YAY!

I think next week will go so much better since I had to buy a lot of non-food stuffs like detergent ($6), vitamins ($6), conditioner ($6) and tissue ($10).

Health

So my health is going down the proverbial toilet.  This week I have a new symptom which I have mixed emotions about.  It came on very suddenly and it’s just getting worse.  I am happy that this symptom appeared as it might be the symptom I need to get my questions answered…but I really wish it hadn’t…  I’m not going to go into any details until I find hope/a doctor/an answer/something.  The exact symptom is a topic that I feel is too personal to talk about right now (but it’s not really all that personal but I’m still dealing with it all) without having a definite diagnosis.

$10/day

So I didn’t set up a budget for this month. I realized pretty early on that I wasn’t going to be able to do it.  But this upcoming month (May) I will.  I’m trying to save 25% of my paycheck because in the summer months (July-September) my pay will be cut drastically. So in order to do this I am challenging myself to spend $10 a day next month above my fixed expenses (~$1100 in spending total).  What is going to be different about this challenge is that I am giving my self absolutely no leeway to spend ahead of time.  So if it’s only the 3rd of the month, I can only spend $30 no ifs ands or buts about it.  I will update next week to see how it goes.

Perpetual Motion

Most days I’m alright, but then there are days like today.

It makes me question  all aspects about myself.

Is my personality that unlikeable, or am I just plain ugly?

I guess I shouldn’t beat myself up too much…but I do.

I feel angry, sad, lonely and confused.

I am perpetually single.  And to say it’s hard is an understatement.

I want a boyfriend.

Super Stressed

So I do believe this week is the most stressed out I have been since I’ve started graduate school.  To make matters worse it is suppose to storm every day for the next 10 days.  Which means my mystery illness is rearing it’s ugly head and I feel like crap. I hate this. I am not a happy camper.

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